A Love letter to my abusive Father

It’s not so easy to find a Father’s day card – when there are no true sentiments found that describe my Father. I’ve always gotta go with the blank card and write “Have a peaceful Day”……So in the spirit of healing for anyone else this may be a challenge for, I’m sharing this “Love Letter” I recently wrote and gave to my Father just a month ago in the hospital. He’s 90 years old and just recovered from his 5th heart stint……and is still “sweet” as ever!

Dear Dad,

I feel the time and situation is now appropriate for me to share my truth, with honesty and humility, as best I can. Please rest peacefully knowing it comes from love and pure intent for the greatest possible good. At this point – I feel keeping it too myself would be an act of selfishness – no matter how strange it may sound. If you choose to believe it or not - matters not. What does matter is that I believe in the healing power of sharing it.

As you often like to put it “We don’t see eye to eye”. I can live with that…but I can’t live without love. That’s why I am eternally grateful that I have found a way through forgiveness, and disciplined spiritual practices, to see you “Soul to Soul”. There is no fire there (which I too often see in your eyes), only beautiful light.

The first time I met your soul, we stepped out of each other’s bodies and embraced. Our light and love illuminated and burst into sparks.

In fact – I was with your light again on Sunday Night, and I was not alone. I was not totally surprised to learn just this morning that you are back in the hospital. It’s not the first time this phenomena has happened before one of your health episodes. You would not believe the magnitude of love and light that is waiting for you on the soul level.

How you often behave and treat others with cruelty in your physical world, is merely the shadow side, of what I have had the privilege of experiencing spiritually. Please know this, and that the core of your being is just like a lighthouse – endlessly circling it’s beam into the darkness – calling out for you into the shadows - to come back to it’s healing light.

If you can understand this, you will understand why I have chosen to stay out of your shadow, and limited my relationship with you to the soul level. I hold no judgment or resentment towards you, only space, allowance, forgiveness, compassion, and the same love that I hold for all that is.

I have chosen the avenue of the soul, since it has been the healthiest way I’ve found to freely express my love for you without negative consequences. I know the love and compassion I express to you on a soul level is coming from the highest part of me - to the highest part in you.

I too have shadows, as do we all, and understanding them has opened me up to greater love and forgiveness than I could ever have imagined. That’s were the real healing comes - and there’s no turning back. We are all interconnected, so it’s also infinitely important for the healing of our collective universal consciousness.

I pray you will find peace with your shadows – so your legacy can be one of love and forgiveness. You have been loved and forgiven beyond boundaries by your entire family – and rich fertile soil still awaits your seed.

I invite you to open your eyes and mind to the unconditional love and allowance that has always surrounded you – and also lives deep within your heart. All is revealed with forgiveness and humility – and I offer the following questions for you to ponder as I hold loving space in my heart.

What would it feel like to truly forgive everyone who ever upset me?

What would it feel like to truly forgive myself?

What really is forgiveness and who is it really for?

May the blessings of the great mystery of all that is be with you for now and ever more.

I love you, I’m sorry, please forgive me, thank you.

If not for your shadows – I may never have found my light!

They’ve done their job, and now it’s time to let them go…..Ho’ Oponopono

Infinite love and blessings - Daughter Martha.

O Yum Hunab Ku Evam Maya E Ma Ho!

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May there be peace for all children and parents of Abuse this Father's Day
XOXOXOXO