How does Robin Alexis know that a relapse of post traumatic stress syndrome has passed for her?

Robin Alexis opens up about post traumatic stress syndrome

For anyone who knows me it is common knowledge that I suffer from symptoms of post traumatic stress syndrome. I was diagnosed with post traumatic stress syndrome in 1985 shortly after being raped by a psychologist. I had consulted this professional therapist "the rapist" to cope with the death of my baby and other reasons wrapped up in that scenario. One of those reasons is that since the time of my first pregnancy in 1978 I have been diagnosed with deep vein thrombo-phlebitis. Basically that means that I have a very grave health condition. My body is filled with so many blood clots that are so deep in my venous veins of my body that doctors have been telling me since 1978 that I didn't have long to live. My condition was inoperable. It was inevitable that one of those clots was going to move and kill me. The natural course of events from someone like me being diagnosed with such a serious health condition is that a clot will move and cause a heart attack or stroke.

I have been living the past 33 years as if any moment I could die. This conscious knowledge has contributed to why I have chosen to live true to my soul's purpose. If you want to know what my soul purpose is you are welcome to read either of my 2 e-books which you can buy for $4.95 on my web site www.robinalexis.com. The first book is called, "Raising Humanity" by Robin Alexis and 22 Storytellers. The second book is called "Robin's Song, Treasure Your Soul's Wisdom". You can also buy the soft copy books on www.amazon.com or order them at any bookstore. But for now let's get back to my purpose of writing this blog about recovering from a relapse of post traumatic stress syndrome.

The therapist who locked me in his office and had his way with me did spend some time in jail. This was because I was not the first woman who he had sexual relations with during his counseling sessions but I was the first one to speak out about it. When I did, then other women followed in reporting his unethical behavior. I had reported the incident to the Attorney General's office in the state which I resided in at the time. That office then began to investigate. When these other rape victims were approached by someone from the Attorney General's office saying that they were investigating this doctor for criminal behavior, these women spoke about their experiences too. Together, we who had been victimized spoke out, and this man went to jail. He was jailed for the lesser charge of fraudulently using people's insurance money to rape us all during counseling sessions. So he went to jail for screwing the insurance companies, not for screwing us and screwing us up even more than we were before consulting him for our well-being. That is the way of the judicial system. His licensing was permanently revoked and he no longer had the right to further practice as a professional psychologist. Most of us women were subsequently diagnosed with post traumatic stress syndrome.

For years I didn't discuss post traumatic stress syndrome with anyone because people can be cruel when you have a problem coping with the harshness of life and that coping mechanism has a diagnosis called post traumatic stress syndrome. Throw in the fact that I am an extremely gifted mystic as a result of 3 near death experiences and you will have quite an elixir for people calling you crazy!It is a easy way for people to dismiss anything you say at all.

At 55 years of age and darn lucky to be alive, I am in the place of security within my self that it is okay for people to react to me in a way that serves them, not me. It is good to stand unaffected by others' perception of me. I know I speak my truth and whatever anyone else speaks is their concern and their right. I say that now, while I am recovered from a relapse of post traumatic stress syndrome and my energy is strong enough to be unaffected by open cruelty.

From my experience the symptoms of post traumatic stress syndrome can go into remission. They are like a virus that lies dormant in your nervous system. I went literally decades without suffering a relapse of post traumatic symptoms. Then an extremely minor car accident where I was very innocently rear ended at a stop light caused me to walk off that bridge of balance again. Luckily for me I am able to recognize when that is happening to me and immediately get help, lots and lots of help until finally those post traumatic symptoms do go away again. I am able to trust myself to heal. Why do I have to heal from post traumatic stress syndrome at all? Why don't we live in a world that doesn't cause it?

Post traumatic stress syndrome is a horrible personal experience for me. I have deep, deep, deep compassion for anyone who suffers from it. it is a far harder realization that I could die any minute. The truth is we can all die any minute. What I am concerned with is quality of life while I have it. I don't want to waste a precious moment of my life force on anything but that which brings me joy. I want to educate people about how awful it is to be a person with post traumatic stress syndrome and how it negatively impacts the quality of life that an individual has. It clouds our perception of the experience of joy. It then affects families, communities, the nation and the world. It is a energetic pollutant that can and does have ripple effects from one generation of a family to the next.

Our society now knows that many soldiers and their families suffer from post traumatic stress syndrome. We know this based on the statistics of those people who dared to reach for help. More often than not a person with post traumatic stress syndrome will not ask for help. They are too off balance to remember how to or they don't know who to ask for help. If some one ridicules them for being weak or punishes them in some other way for asking for help, they will further retreat from fully engaging in life with themselves and society.

My dream was to have a TV show called,"Beyond the Battlefield" where I am orchestrating the forum for public awareness and personal healings for people who have post traumatic stress syndrome, specifically as a result of war. So far that dream has not come true. The pilot for a tv show was created and the footage was so bad it couldn't even be edited. The healing that came through for the woman I was working with during the "Beyond the Battlefield" pilot was miraculous. She and I are both glad for her but what about all the other women who like her were raped during their time in the military and now suffer from post traumatic stress syndrome as a result?

Maybe my job isn't to help them. Maybe my job is to only help myself. My first creed is, "Thy Will Be Done on Earth as it is in Heaven." I truly believe that if Mother/Father God doesn't want something to happen it won't. I also believe that what Mother/Father God has blessed, it cannot be cursed. Perhaps it is my faith that has helped me most of all to overcome the symptoms of post traumatic stress syndrome.

Right now the relapse of post traumatic stress syndrome is over. How do I know? One of my deepest joys is reading. I can read books again. That is one of many ways that I know I am well again. I don't just read one book. I can and do read numerous books at the same time. I am so delighted to share with you the book titles I am reading right now.

"Medjugorje, The Message by Wayne Weible

"Miracle of Love, stories about Neem Karoli Baba, compiled by Ram Dass

"The One Command" by Asara Lovejoy

"The Nine Faces of Christ, the Quest of the True Initiate" by Eugene E. Whitworth

I am so excited that I can focus on the joy of reading again. I am content to know, trust and act upon my own knowing. The result of this inner resolve is to feel that what I have shared through me during this lifetime was as Holy as I could get myself to channel. Joy is the expression of Holiness.

If you or someone you know has post traumatic stress syndrome please understand that you cannot dismiss this invisible disease. If I had been in a wheel chair and you kept seeing people come over to me and throw me out of the wheel chair you would think,

"How rotten can you be throwing a helpless person out of their wheel chair!?"

When someone is experiencing the symptoms of post traumatic stress syndrome they are in an invisible wheel chair. Don't throw them out of their wheel chair just because you can't see the wheel chair with your human eyes. Start looking at people with your heart.

Let the first person you look at with your heart eyes be yourself,

Robin Alexis